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This is a post about the ONE thing that is hard for me to throw away. This post is not a pregnancy announcement! I am not a clutter bug, why if you know me, you know that I hold on to nothing! My kid has few toys, I have few clothes, I take bags of clothes and "stuff" to the DI almost monthly, and I often find myself thinking, "oh, I have one of those....oh wait, no I don't, I got rid of it."

So even though there is no reason for me to keep my pee sticks, for the past two pregnancies I would stash them on top of my cabinet, dust them off and look at them every so often, then tuck them securely back into their secret a-top-the-cabinet spot. I even took a picture of my pee stick, so I can throw it away, right? This is Jennsen's pee stick. I took a picture of it a year ago, but I just kept it on top of the shelf, looking at it every now and then, and I COULD not drop it into the trash. I decided tonight it's finally going into the trash. I have sympathy for people that hold onto things for sentimental value, clearly this is why I was holding onto my pee sticks. I guess it's time to say goodbye to my dear pee stick. It's hard throwing it away, the line doesn't even read "positive" anymore. I know I'll get over it and if I want I can look at this picture or even better I can look at my child to remind me HOW GRATEFUL I am that I am able to have children. It's moments like these that make the chaos of children melt away into oblivion and make me wonder if these walls will ever be graced by another sweet baby.